Cameron Vaughan

Cameron Vaughan @ IMDB -- CustomsYou are most powerful when you are most silent. People never expect silence. They expect words, motion, defense, offense, back and forth. They expect to leap into the fray. They are ready, fists up, words hanging, leaping from their mouths. Silence? No.

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Today, I sat down and scanned the friends page on here. Skimmed some entries, had a few good laughs at some of the pictures that have been posted on the forums and then I got to thinking about myself. Why I have this journal that I don't really write in. Obviously, I have to to keep up with a community but when it gets right down to it I haven't done much of anything lately. Yet I still find myself physically and mentally exhausted. Is this depression? Maybe. Will it pass, I certainly hope so.

There was a time, not that long ago in fact, where my schedules were filled. I was either filming, promoting, or doing charity work. I had appearances to go to, a love life to keep up with phone calls to make, interviews at radio stations. Cheeky rumors to shoot down. Now its just vicious rumors. Bad press. Regret about things I said last night and a wicked headache that's probably the result of the empty bottle of wine next to this computer. I rarely go out anymore, but when I do pictures still find their way to TMZ or ONTD. My agent actually called to ask if I needed a dress for the Oscars... because I've been photographed with Nic. No, TMZ. We aren't back on.

I need to get out more. Its a sad thing for me to say, but its the truth. I don't know why I suddenly became a hermit Yes I do but I did. Church on Sunday's just simply isn't enough anymore.

So I guess this is where I extend my plea to you, person who might be reading my journal. What sort of things are there for me around the Myrtle Beach area that I can get involved in? Charity work, fun things, classes I could take. If you know of it, please share with me. Help a lonely woman out!